Weblog
Sunday, 30 November 2008
-
New Goals, New Methods.
119.2 (still in the 120 range. discouraging to say the least)
So, still too stressed out to really have an appetite for anything....other than alcohol. :(
I barely ate at all yesterday, but managed to drink 860 cals. Disgusting. I should have just drank until I threw up, but past a certain age, that's just unacceptable. Soo...
New Years is fast approaching, and I refuse to start another year as a fucking heifer. I'll be 109 by Jan. 1st if it kills me. It's not impossible, or even improbable. I was 118 before I went out last night. So I have 9 pounds to lose, and 4 weeks to do it. Plus, I'm so busy moving, studying for finals, taking care of my mom, and working to possibly eat....I hope. I've been doing really well meeting my cardio goals. Now I think I'll increase them to 45 minutes cardio/10 minutes strength 5 days a week.
I'm posting updated pics tomorrow...so if you have a weak stomach, don't look. I'm still a disgusting, gooey marshmallow looking fat-ass.
Friday, 28 November 2008
-
The Stress Diet
Instructions;
Take 15 credit hours, two dogs, a 45 hour a week job, a fiance, wedding plans, 2 sick parents and an ailing grandfather, and add a cross-state move to a more expensive house.
Mix it all in a blander and choke on it.
I'm so stressed that I have no appetite. :)
Edit:
New Measurements-
Waist- 25.75 Hips- 36.25 Thigh-21.25
Weight- 119.0 (I ate yesterday. 3 tbs stuffing, 2 tbs mashed potato, 1 pumpkin spice cookie, 1/4 cup squash, 1/4 cup swt. potatoes w/splenda, catalan spinach (I eat spinach every day) and a bite of cake...and of course, 3 glasses of cabernet).
Tuesday, 25 November 2008
-
Bliss.
118.6
Around 1:30 pm, I realized that I hadn't eaten all day. I got up and worked out at 6 am, went to work, and forgot to eat. Bliss.
I wish everyday was like this one.
1/2 pink lady apple, 2 almonds, spinach w/fat free balsamic, 2 glasses cabernet sauvignon.
Monday, 24 November 2008
-
Currently
No Division
By Hot Water Music
see relatedSome Serious Fat Aggression.
121.2Embarassed as hell to post that number. I almost didn't. But I'm trying to keep myself honest.
Hold the phones. I just got home from work, and weighed myself again (fully clothed, and it's winter here in Detroit), and I'm coming in at 119.6.
Now, I don't believe in taking off 5 lbs. for clothing and all of that, but at least a pound, right? I mean, I'm wearing a sweater and J. Crew twills.
A bit relieved, I must say.
I ate Ethiopian food yesterday. So delicious that my fat ass can't stop thinking about it. If you haven't had it, I recommend it. I also had a half a bottle of red wine. Ugh. Fat ass.
I keep making these promises to myself that I'll be better to me, and finally get back to my happy weight. But I break them and end up stuck in the ugliest numbers ever. I don't know why. I know how happy I can be when my 0's are actually zipping without causing a tremendous, disgusting case of muffin top. Now my 2's are fitting snug. I refuse to even go shopping because I know I'll have to buy 2's and then I'll have no motivation to fit back into my 0's and 25/26's. :(
I'm going to get on the elliptical now.
Friday, 21 November 2008
-
Red Monster
The most discouraging thing in the dieting world...the period. I'll be steadily losing weight and then 3 days before the start, I gain 3 or 4 lbs. It's ridiculous.
121.0
18.8%
I didn't cave into my sugar cravings. I did have some fat-free, sugar-free chocolate pudding. But I stayed under 900 calories yesterday.
I'm moving. I live in an awesome city in MI, near Detroit. But all of my best friends and family are pretty far from me on the other side of Detroit, and I just found a house there that I love. Here we go again. I hate moving. On the upside, I have this friend there who I am feircely competitive with, weight-wise. She's back down to 105, and when we start going to the gym together again I'm sure I'll drop weight like crazy. I love my old gym...I forgot how much!
So most of the VB pics are vintage, but I just adore her look! Someday...
tenpoundsfromperfect
-
- Name: tenpoundsfromperfect
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 11/7/2008
Connect
Archives
About Me
-
I'm fat (not technically, or by health standards), and I am willing to do whatever it takes to get back to my former skinny self...or skinnier. I plan on getting to 105 and staying there. Right now, here are my stats; 5'1, 120 lbs. I know, f*cking gross. Help me?
Chatboard (1)